Sometimes, you just have
to wait.
Your mind might keep
telling you
that you are living
a lie,
that your hopes float
on a sinking ship,
that you heart is
wrong.
Sadly, your mind
is right.
Yet, you wait.
The waiting gives you
a way to
while away the
snail-like time…
much like writing poetry
about your loss…
for the few moments
that the poem lasts,
your loss is not yours…
The waiting gives you
a way to dream
of things impossible
of things delusional
of things you would never
confess to
because you know them
to be
false…
you know them to exist
only withing the
confines of
your
beating, dreaming
heart.
So, you wait…
Wait for the joy to arrive
Wait for the moment to come
Wait for these days to pass
Wait for the loss to return.
It might disgust you,
the falsity
of your life:
every second, every minute
lost in hopeless
meaningless
fantasy…
beautiful indeed, but never
never to come true.
And yet, it is
easiest
to wait.
Wait with your
hands folded
in your lap,
your eyes lost
in the depths of fantasy,
your feet tapping
to music of another world…
And somehow, you believe
quite disgustingly
that this faith
will end your wait…
that it shall arrive
after all.